why i came after her :')

dearest - my sweet :)

hai. its been a long time. yeahh , where's all the post bout you? here. i keep silently in my heart. the one i used to know before had walk out slowly from my life. though its hard. though is hurt. but that's the reality. and yeah sometimes reality really hit me. i should'nt fallin for him. that was my mistakes. but the biggest mistake i did is denying all the things that happened between us. well, its kinda stupid when i keep supporting him for what he want and all that thing was actually make him more far from me. and now , he already got what he want. that was his happiness. and im happy for him. at least , one of us got what itself want. i learn how to let him go. i try to forgot all the memories between us. but then , i realised the memories will never fade away. im happy to had him as a part of my life. in a short time, God send me someone to strong my heart and light my way. thanks God. he is amazing. and he did make me smile and laughed happily. i miss him. i miss how he always pujuk me and ask my attention. i miss reading the old long text from him. and the words that really touched my heart when he says ' why i don't meet u first ' ..... :) did u know how much it mean to me. no other words to explained. how you always complained my grammar , comment my english word. even that things show my stupidity , but its a funny thing for both of us. we spend most of the time sitting in the car and thinking where is our next destination until we decided no other place to go except So -.- . playing Steps with you , even u were so noob. but then u get jealous when i play romantic mode with others player. i like to saw that actually. disturbing u playing Dota. helping u flirting with other girl eventhough i feel so jealous. Cook for you, well actually i nvr cooked for anyone before. u are my first client , and not bad. still , i win u heart with my delicious own recipe. still remember 27 october 2012. that was the day , we went to keningau. everything was fine and good but then u lost ur mode when she told u that she will send her last pic for u. and that time , i really pissed off with her. why? why don't she realised how much u love her. why she make u sad. i can't... i can't let anyone hurt ur feelings. cause i feel hurt too.. u never knew what i felt towards u, cause all i want to happened is seeing u with her. cause i know u had did everything for her. when u told me about the present u bought for her and all ur hardwork.. i whispered in my heart.. 'if i was her'................... and i still remember the saddest day , when u know she still contact with her Ex and another 2 person waiting for her answer and u felt like u just another choices. the day i saw u really miserable , and i told u a lot of things. and i was hoping that time u realised , im standing in front of u now. i were there. im always here for u. but then , things was'nt happened like that. God listened ur pray. God opened her heart for you. u promise u will always come for me. nothing gonna change even u got her. u promise i still the number Two. u promise u will always prepared a little time for me. u promise u will text me at least once a week. and i wait... im waiting all the time. i met someone but does'nt mean i forgot u easily. u said i will b happy with him. and i said yeahh. all i wanna do is making u happy when u see me happy even im not. i miss your voice and ur caring towards me. i miss our midnite calling , when u said u can't sleep and i will immediately call u.. yeahh , all i wanna do is watching u happy. i don't have to mention ur name here. its too dangerous. im sorry if i posting this thing and make u felt uncomfortable , annoying or mad. i got no one to talk with , and no one will understand what is the real situation. till then , i wish the best for u. God bless and protect u always. im leaving soon. u already got her to be with u. and all u had to do now is take a good care of ur relationship yea. i always pray for you. i will never forget u , the owner of keychain in my wallet :)


sincerely ,
ur hunn :)

Part 1 :)

haii you . haha , tajuk agak weird . sebab akan ada 3 part yg sy akan post . well , lama sy janji'janji sama tuu org kan . now , sy post laa utk dea . hehe . first peristiwa yg akan sy cakap adalah moment kami pigi keningau samasama . it was a veryvery good dayy until i got text from my friend . haha . -..- pasal apaa ? sehh , adalah tuu . yg penting sua settle dgn jayanyaa :D apa kunun kami buat d keningau , haha C: pusing'pusing tempat yg sama sampai laaaa kami boring . pkara yg pling mengejutkan juga adalah terjumpa sama guru kelas ku , adehh . we just friend ~~~~ tapi kenyataanya d mata mereka , imma pro . lol , xD sambung lagii , hm . ada kami nampak babyboy yg sangat comel ;3 tp kesiann ne , ada driver yg palui p drive mcm bapa dea punya jalan =oo= mau ja sy turun ambik batu besar umban tu kreta . tp sy xda mampu pn buat apa apa :( hmmmm ~ apa lagi arrr mo ckp . mau tau beberapa perkara pasal sii dea ne ? nahh . sy list dulu pkara yg sy tau . dea x suka kismis , HAHAHA . itula ko palupaaa tu ;p dea x makan mayonaise , ehh ! ngam ka tu ejaan . antam ja laa , the reason is dea muntah darah nanti . hehe . XD dea suka purple laaa sgt , dunno ikhlas ka wrna kgmaran dea ne ;p apaaa lagi ? hmm. dea anak pertama ysg masi manja sama mamii dea wlupn dea sda angkol2. haha , oii ~ jgn ko marah k ? sy syg ko bh , itula sy ingat ne semua walaupun ada niat mo mengijik . ahaha XD sbnarnya kmi byk keserasian wlupn pada luarannya nampak setiap apa kami inginkan bercanggah. sumtimes terfikir juga , dea rindu sy ka kalo sy mmg tiada suda d hidup dea nnti ........... ada pkara yg masih d tnggu untk menentukan hal itu. sgala kemungkinan masih ada. :') apapun , selama kita masih berkawan. sy mo kau tau , ko bermakna untuk sy. ko slalu buat sy gembira tanpa ko sedar. bila ja sy perlukan ko, ko x ragu2 mo kwn sy. wlupn gaya ko kdg2 bikin panas , itula jg gurauan yg bole buat sy ktawa. haha :'D btw , mo dkat suda befday ko kann ? bingung juga mo bg apa , tp sy bg ja apa yg sy mampu k . :) biarlaaa sy wish ko awal'awal di sini . hehe . HAPPY BIRTHDAY my gulagula :) jgn ko nakal , ko pnya ntibody tuu lemah. jalan skit pn ko penat suda, mudah tjatuh lagi. nnti kalo sy suda teda, teda yg mo kc slamat ko ok ? ;'p jadilah diri ko yg sbenar'benarnya. kalo org itu ikhlas syg ko , mcmana keburukan pn dea akan terima. percayala :) semoga kehidupan ko berjalan dgn lebih baik dan lancar. sihat dan ceria setiap saat. thanks utk semuanya. masa, wang dan juga segala yg tidak mampu sy katakan. ko bagus bah sebenarnyaaa , jgn ko risau. kalo sy slalu ckp ko jaat tu , sy cuma mainmain ja. sy harap ko dpt mengikuti jalan yg terbaik dlm setiap hal yg ko lakukan, tuhan selalu memberkati ko. sy x mampu utk katakan perkataan jgn lupakan sy. sbb manusia sukar utk d ramal. berharap akan lebih mnyakitkan. jadi , lbh baik silent stay. hmm. itu ja laa. sori tipu ko sy ckp panjanggggg gila kn. tp sbnarnya pndek gne ja. byk yg sy cut sbb sy rasa hal lain xda d perlukan dlm post ini. akhir kata , 1 hal yg tidak pernah berubah, saya selalu ada untuk ko :D



xoxo - magg siikasutpink <3

im just me :)

magg love you :)

Gula - gulaaaa :)

haloo , tajuk yangg pelik tapi cerita yang menarik . aisehhh ~ kununla . hahaha . cerita ini mengenai kisah kemarin . kami jalan-jalan buang boringg . haha . stay time hujan macam sweet couple xDD aitsss , jangan pikir bukanbukan . sy sokong dea utk mendapat princess dea okk , sy baca lg msg2 durgg ( hafal ) wahaha . about yesterday bukan sweet moment tp precious moment :) ya laaaa , kami mana pena sweet . betumbuk seja selalu , hahaha . not friend , not brother . so what are we ?? we are sasau'sasau . hehehe :P nda baaa , oii . jangan ko tumbuk tu skrin lappy baca ne blogg . kita kan suka sasau ;3 ada yg gurauan , ada jg yg ikhlas dr hati sy yang suci ne xD dea nda mo kunun suda kena pggl cicak , comel pun tu nickname . hehe . mimangg bah kau , nda menghargai ==' sehhhh ~ jdiii , pggl dea gulagula sbb itu tanda perkenalan kami . anywayy , susah mo explain relation yang gila di kepala otak kami . XD baru jaaa ba kmi kenal ne , blum 1 bulan pun ( yaka ?? ) . antam laaa , itu ikut pekiraan sy laa . plan harini , buat kek utk si gulagula ne . kek purple ;p sbb itu tanda kaler dea sama org yg dea suka :) hehehe . walaupun kami ne rapat , teada orgg tau sbb nnti orgg byk pikir lainlain . lgpun sy ne ada stalker , AHAHAHAHA ! gilaa -.- . kami punya tempat lepak sanaa full house atau glnggang basket d skola :P kerja kami sebenarnya berceritaaaaa ja sampai kami lapar . hahaha . sy buat ne post utk dea sbb sy tau dea tnggu'tnggu ne sy post utk dea , dea kan suka rasa terharuu xDD bhaaa , ko free ka ? jumm kita pi bulan . bosann ouu di tenom ;p

p/s - panat saya edit balik ne post , banyak sia padamm :P


xoxo - maggrawkdeawesome <3

ini permintaan sii geng karas :D

haiii , saya ada saturangg geng karas :p nama dea di rahsiaaa kan sebab nanti dea gagal dalam percintaan . HAHAHA , dea sgt noob ~ nda baaa . dea bagus , sembuii ( kunun laaa ) . cara kami kenal sangat pelik laaa , dea mau bagi gulagula kunun . tapi saya ingat dea mainmain , soo saya buat dun care . rupanya , hati dea terguris . dea cakap laaa yg sy ne tembirangg . ohmyyyyyy XD akhirnyaaa , kesalahfahaman itu selesai di gelanggang basketball . berkawan la kunun kamii , saling bermaafan . silly things spjg kami bkawan adalah , kami di salahertikan . means ada laa yg pi sound dea kunun , mgaku lagi tu buifren saya . wahhh3 . sbar sejalaaa~  chehhh ~ tapi dea ne ndatau la ikhlas ka nda bkawan . sbb pandai jadi jahat baaa gaya dea sama sayaa . kalo baikk , yangg terlampau baik . aisehhh , kau marah ka ne baca ? XD hahah . sy suda buat post khas ne untuk kau , kadi nda bole marah . belanja cola okk ? :pp kami punya persahabatan yang indah ne cuma dalam dunia kami jaaa , orang lain nda bule tau sebab ada laaaaa tu xD semoga kami sentiasa gembira bersama . hahaha , mcm couple pulak . trololol ~ no larrr . saya doakan dea berjaya mengejar kebahagiaan dea , and utk geng karas ku . ' saya sentiasa di sini untuk ko ' hehehe .


p/s - met u as a chance , being friend wit u was luck . to keep the relationship is up to u and me :)



xoxo - maggrawkdeawesome <3

hai , heloo :)

otak blur ~ saya cuma rasa ingin minum cola saat ini ;p

its been a long time :')

haii guysss :D wassup ? hows ur day ? well , im kinda stupid and crazy here. but still can move on and pretend to b strong. rawkk yeahh (Y) to b honest , tahun brokenheart ne 2012. HAHAHA. kick kan ayat saia ? weww~ sabar sejaaa. byk btl perubahan drastik yg sy ambil dlm 4 bulan ne. salah satunya ialah , tinggal di asrama. XD gila ? mmg gilaa. khdupan d asrama tdk jg truk bhh . trust me . tp itupn kalo ramai kwn and supporter , ndala boringg . roomate saia pn sumanya baikkk punyaaa :D junior2 saia okee , sntiasa ON kalo bwa buat apaapa . 1 jaa yg sy nda tahan , nda cukup tdur. gila bebb , kalo dulu nda pena pn tdur dlm kelas , skrgg ? time kimia pn brani pdahal cikgu dea yg pling awesome kalo marah . huu >___< . nsib blum pena kena sound. hehehe . the end psl cerita asramaa :P okehh , cerita lg psl exam . nahhh ~ palingg manang laa ni kali especially itu paper addmaths XD antam sejaaaa . yg len , tingu2 kijap . pura2 fikir , baling2 pen pastu tidur. hahaha. awesome kann ? anywayy , mau hari raya aidilfitri suda bh kann ? palingg like . sebab ? CUTI DAN MAKANAN . heee , lapar ja p serang ruma jiran2 . malas kan mau msk d ruma sndri , hehe. aihhh ~ cepat btul ne masa blalu kann , ndalama lg befdayy sy. apa knun wish sy ne thun ? ntah laa , mau hdup gmbra seja. mau pulihkan sgla kelukaan yg tlalu mndalam d hati ini. aisehh , mcm la tlmpau frust. butt , yes i do . mmg sy hdup hilang tujuan lps break sema itu ex buifren. tp hdup msti go on kann ? so , thats what i doing rite nw. hargai org yg syg sy dan yg lbh pantas dptkan sy. deiii , jiwangg kunun saia . hehehe. ok laaa , penat bh kunun sy menaip ne. thats all :D thankyouu for reading. take care and god bless :)



p/s - i wonder why i feel sucks ? make me feel love once again ~


xoxo ; maggrawkdeawesome ~